worst day of my life

the scariest day of my life is finally winding down to a close.

it started when the toilet in our apartment wouldn't flush, so i took the top off the tank and found a piece had snapped off. i tried to pull the little ball thing up and the top came off something and a literal geyser errupted. the flow of water was hitting the ceiling and puddling on the floor and everywhere else; seeping into the carpet in the hallway. i paniced when i couldn't get the valve to turn to shut off the water because it had been painted over. so i ran up and down the stairs of the complex, looking for someone to help, but no one was home. after every one of our bath towels and 2 blankets on the floor, it still wasn't getting it all. i finally got it turned off after kicking it. i looked like i had been running for 10 minutes in a down pour.

prior to the geyser finally stopping, i had called matt in near hysterics, asking him to call the office to send someone over to shut off the water. he apparently ran out of class and rushed home to help. i called after i got it shut off and told him it was no longer an emergency, but he was already on his way. i'm sure he would have come home anyways to check things out and make sure i was ok.

when he got here, i was about halfway done cleaning up the mess. he looked around, acting a bit strange. then he looked like he was getting nauseous and started breathing heavy. i thought he was going to be sick or maybe pass out. after a few seconds, he spun around and started attacking something that wasn't there...as if bugs were swarming him. then he fell, crashing his head into the DVD rack, and started seizing. his arms were straight out in front of him and his body was stiff. his mouth started foaming, his tongue swelled up, and his eyes rolled back in his head. his color went from beat red to pale blue in about a minute. immediately after he first fell down, i called 911 and sat on the floor next to him. i was near hysterics by this time, but overall i was surprised how i handled it.

i turned him on his side like i know you're supposed to do when he started choking on vomit and he was mumbling incoherently and flailing around. i was terrified he'd choke to death and die right there in front of me. after the 911 lady hung up, i called my mom and she calmed me down while i held matt's hands and tried to steady his breathing. he was weezing and rolling around on the floor, so i was just trying to make sure he was able to breath and keep him in one place until the paramedics arrived.

a first responder and a police officer got there first and tried to get him alert. when he came around a bit, he was slurring his words and couldn't answer questions like when his birthday was and what day it was. i gave them all the medical info i knew and then called his parents to see what hospital he should be taken to and what else they might need to know. he was in the bathroom vomiting for a good 10 minutes while the paramedics got his vitals and hooked him up to a IV. they couldn't get the stretcher up the stairs of the apartment, so they carried him down on one of our dining room chairs.

my mom, dad, ken, bridgett, and matt's parents all came to the hospital. by the time we got back to see him, he was doing much better. i can't express how relieved i was when i walked into that hospital room and he said, "come here" and gave me a kiss. i had felt so guilty about causing him to get all worked up and i just wanted to see him and know he was ok.

they're not sure what caused it yet. they said it could have been stress induced or it could have to do with his past medical issues. he has a cavernous angioma that was found in 2004 after he had his 1st (and only other) seizure. they did brain surgery, but apparently didn't get all of it. so now he's back on anti-seizure meds and has to go see his old doctor to get tests run again. he can't drive for a while, so i'm taking him to work and school tomorrow. his stupid job can't do without him another day.

i can't explain how terrified i was. i look back and it's as if it happened to someone else. i'm so glad he's ok.

update

life appears to be looking up lately. the apartment feels like home and i'm experiencing a new feeling of contentness with matt and the cats. we're like a little family. i also got a new job...at borders!! i've always wanted to work there and be around and talk about books all day, but never got a call back. now i start on wednesday and i'm pumped. i might actually enjoy my job this time. school is slowly falling into place as well, but it's still complicated. i just have to get everything done, which is a headache.

for sweetest day i got matt an adorable outfit from old navy...a brown sweater and painter jeans. he rocks them. :) i got a GIANT teddy bear, a framed photo of us at scott and emily's wedding, and beautiful katamari for x-box. i still haven't mastered the whole turning thing yet, but i'm getting better at it.

tomorrow is laundry day, then tuesday is gus' first vet visit, and then work on wednesday.

long time no write

i'm currently sitting at my new desk from ikea at matt's apartment. well...sort of our apartment, but i don't pay rent yet, so i can't really call it that without being presumptuous. today i moved the last of my stuff in and i'm feeling pretty good about it. this will be the first time i live close to my family without having to live at home. and i get to be with gus and hairy all the time! oh yeah, and matt too. ;)

so gus is our new kitten. i got him for free from a family in almont and he's precious beyond words. he's around 8 weeks now and he got his first bath this morning. tore up my right hand pretty bad, but he smells pretty now. hairy wasn't too ecstatic about him for a few days, but he's adjusted rather quickly from what i've heard. they play and lick each other. hairy's not the most affectionate cat in the first place, but i think gus will have a positive impact.

i haven't updated this thing since the chicago trip, which was great. i got to see my lisha and be in my favorite city with my favorite boy. it was hot and sweaty, but we covered a lot of ground in the short time we were there. walked along michigan ave., saw millenium park, macy's foodlife, navy pier, shed aquarium, bits of wicker park, and ate saturday night at flat top with lisha. matt loved it and we're hoping to move there eventually. hopefully taking ken and bridgett with us.

last time i updated i had 2 jobs, now i have none. i don't really want to talk about it. lots of bad luck. boo. right now i'm looking for anything that'll put money in my pocket so i can start paying bills, ect.

lastly, i went to scott and emily's wedding reception saturday evening. they looked great and i loved emily's dress. the hall was beautiful and everyone had a lot of fun. at least i did. :) good friends, music, and free alcohol usually goes over well together.