Sometimes, I acted dumb around him. I'd say, "Oh, what's that?" when I knew perfectly well what he was talking about. It made me feel like I didn't know who I was, or who I was supposed to be. I giggled nervously at things that weren't funny. I would become too aware of my mouth, or how I was moving my hands. I began living with a black hole of insecurity that had moved into my consciousness like an unwanted relative who refused to leave yet constantly criticized the accommodations.
EXACTLY!
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